Watch what springs forth from the dark in you. Honour it. Your feelings are valid and will support your growth. Your mind wants to make judgements about you. But your mind is being an arsehole. A new side of you is suddenly becoming available. You have a golden opportunity to fall in love with yourself in a deeper and more meaningful way than anyone has ever been able to before.
Jupiter, Pluto, and Saturn are all now in retrograde (Pluto and Saturn in Capricorn, Jupiter in Sagittarius). Old programming based on lack, low self worth, surpressed healthy desires, and toxicity are coming to the surface. Honour it without engagement. Anything coming up now is coming up for closure – let that understanding shield you from fear of experiencing it. This is not your future, so let yourself experience this ugliness one last time to say goodbye, with gratitude. What wants to bloom for you this spring will not come if you prevent yourself from taking deeper roots in the dark.
You may have never felt like this before. That’s because you were not sensitive enough before to feel what was already there, buried in you.
Savour your pain as deeply as your pleasure. The contrast will serve you to better feel and appreciate the light of joy coming in just for you. Because it’s already here – you just can’t feel it on your face if you are numb. This is a beautiful spring, and you deserve all your sensations.
This spring and summer, make a commitment to get into a passionate love affair with yourself. Stay up late asking yourself questions, or pleasing yourself in any manner you need. Listen compassionately and lovingly to your own sad stories, holding yourself like a lover would. Take yourself out on incredible dates. And whatever you do don’t let the petty circumstances of your life prevent this. After all, how can you ask a lover to be committed to you if you can’t be committed to you?
Kriya: Women’s Set for Pleasure and Happiness
PLUTO IS NOW RETROGRADE UNTIL OCTOBER.
Like a blast, we are hit with some unexpected interference that forces us inward. Anxiety as fuel for inner change.
Solar flares are creating increased magnetism in a lot of us. We could feel potent, and that realisation of personal power is particularly frightening because we feel personally responsible for not only or lives, but the lives of those around us in our sphere of influence. And because of the increased magnetism around these solar flares we are aware of having a bigger sphere of influence, a bigger aura than we thought. Which means we can magnetically attract more. It’s up to you if it’s more light, more gold, more God, or if you want to float through life like a giant hoover, attracting everyone else’s drama. But this is a time you are aware that the path to become MORE involves the acceptance of LESS of something else to create the space. Time to take out the trash.
Pluto retrograde turns this MORE energy inward to help you find the path to LESS. We’re raising the energy on this planet and you’re now tasked with the work of figuring out what is keeping you low. It’s going to take some insisting, some investigation, some insight. This obsessive inward focused energy could just as easily manifest as constant worry, so please channel in down into your root to root out whatever remaining insecurities or habits are holding you back. If something suddenly removes itself from your space, thank your higher self for showing you what was holding you back and eliminating it quickly.
Kriya: 108 frogs
Mantra: Sat Nam Wahe Guru
See you Sunday 28 April for another meditation where we confront this intense purifying energy! 7pm BST (GMT+1)
BOTH SQUARE MOON, MARS, NN, AND LILITH CONJUNCTION IN AQUARIUS
SUN CONJ MERCURY IN VIRGO QUINCUNX PLUTO RETROGRADE IN CAPRICORN
How do you do the work to build when the foundations are collapsing? How can you create with a strong and determined intention when our definitions of good are constantly shifting?
The pace of life and the rate at which we are expected to integrate new information is increasing to new astonishing levels. we are becoming aware that old measures of success like worldly achievements are unsustainable in a transforming environment. Our mental landscape is transforming, so we are watching the world around us shift chop and melt according to what needs to be deconstructed or fall away from our preoccupation. The extent to which you are experiencing confusion, destruction, anxiety and burnout now is the extent to which you have failed to maintain a clear goal and perspective in your mind that is in alignment with your true self and your true soul purpose.
The sun in Virgo Transit has really switched the light on, hasn’t it? We can’t run anymore from the areas where we have let ourselves down.
The real achievement you can hope to gain now is to regain or maintain mastery over your mind and body so that you have the agility to incorporate new ideas and changing conditions with grace and a smile. In order for us to get to that state we have to be honest with ourselves about the extent to which our shadow selves are ruling our lives and limiting our success.
Accept that you may feel like nothing has been accomplished. Put whatever energy you have left into something to improve your mental clarity take care of your emotions and recharge your body. Let whatever is going to die, die, even if it is just an aspect of your personality or your self. Grieve. The path forward is through acceptance.
Mantra: I accept my whole self, my whole self is needed to take the next step.
GRAND CROSS: LILITH 4° SOUTH NODE OF THE MOON 3° AND MARS 0° IN AQUARIUS, URANUS IN TAURUS 2°, VENUS IN SCORPIO 2°, NORTH NODE OF THE MOON LEO 3°. (Teachers you are being summoned to guide others through difficult changes and stop being obstacles to progress!) SUN IN VIRGO 19° OPPOSITE NEPTUNE RETROGRADE 14°, TRINE PLUTO RETROGRADE IN CAPRICORN 18° SEXTILE JUPITER IN SCORPIO 18°. (You have a holy rescue mission into your personal underworld to use practical techniques to reclaim the aspects of your inner power that you left to die)
All in good time, friends. This is a lesson we’re all going through this month. Appreciate the timing of your life and don’t fight it. Respect the natural laws of your physical body, the limits of those around you, and the consequences of your past actions. The more you work within that framework, the less energy you will expend fighting the current of the inevitable and more energy shining your unique light while you do your unique thing on this planet.
You are a leader in your life whether you recognise it or not. You have every right to stand in your power and give what you have. But you can’t give unless you have the energy to draw from. Stop fighting the funk or wishing for untenable fantasies. Work with what you’ve got to make your own magic happen. ✨
Mantra: my tears fall into dust to make the clay I will use to build the future
Have you been digging up family secrets? Seeing the worst behaviour in yourself and others? Old patterns coming up to be cleared? Re-evaluating the power structures in control of your mind and releasing your grip? Great, you’re doing the work.
Life is incredibly messy and vital to find its way through mental and physical blocks. The extent to which you try to control or mandate the behaviours and beliefs of others this summer is the extent to which you’re going to see your plans unravel. These lessons are coming to a great crescendo these next 4 weeks.
Accept the demon in yourself so it can be transformed. Let go of the illusion of control. Connect to your higher faith in things working out and prosper. Keep doing the work. Don’t be afraid to see and acknowledge evil in others. Walk lightly, protect yourself. Accept your true path even if it diverges. Forgive. Forgive yourself. If your heart hurts it is only because you are seeing truths you have thus far avoided and severing connections to false realities and systems constructed to restrict your growth.
Mantra options to close this summer:
– I love the varied ways in which we learn our lessons.
– I am free from obsessions.
– I am good because I have learned well from my mistakes.
SUN IN LEO 24°
MERCURY RETROGRADE IN LEO 11°
MARS, SATURN, URANUS, AND PLUTO RETROGRADE IN CAPRICORN
whew. get ready for some juicy, messy, unexpressed until recently, repressed rage to rear its pretty head. on your face. if you’ve been keeping a lid on something, get ready for it to be blown clean off. yet even with all this intensity on display, the anger isn’t expressed against another, but instead it is igniting an inner fire, a fuel for your personal transformation, severing outdated obligations and closing old timelines that no longer serve you.
how gracefully you contain this fire so it does not needlessly burn those around you! after all, you are the one that needs the old brush cleared.
just mind that you’re still taking care of your basics and material concerns during this intense transformation. easy to completely forget that. routines seem meaningless in comparison to what you’re “going through”, but trust that they are exactly the tempo, the time anchor you need right now. don’t concern yourself with which routine is truly yours. you will soon be released from the ones no longer meant for you.
Mantra: I build anew only with the clay wet from my heart, letting the dry sand left pass through my fingers.